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April 26, 2012 Date with Janko at Town :)
It’s because I had a great day so I’m blogging… :”>
Today I had a date with my love hahaha yes Janko, the guy I normally hate on ordinary days but after every single day, at night, is the guy I think of last, the guy I love the most in spite of all hate and BV-ness :)) They say you can love someone so much while having to hate them at the same time. This is the love I share with him ‘cause all the hate I have everyday, could easily be replaced by a single day with him. That’s why after all the shit I say, at the end of the day, he’s still the one in my heart. HAHAHA SO WE WENT ON A DATE =)) I’m so happy I strayed off HAHAHA So we went on a happy date at Alabang Town Center, yes here in the south! So he came over, traveled from Quezon City to spend a great day with me. We met around 2PM, an hour late compared to our supposed meet up time so it didn’t start out great and then we had to face a very long line to claim our tickets for The Avengers (we reserved online cos he has an Mpass but we lined up) only to find out there was a VIP lane for that but good thing I saw it after waiting in line for 10 mins. (yeah it seemed like a very long time of waiting already for me HAHAHA) so we claimed our tickets then I toured him around cos a lot of things changed at Town since he last went. Along the way, we saw Gab, Shirra and Shirra’s friends while we were walking towards Jamba Juice then went back to the cinemas to watch THE GREATEST MOVIE EVER =)) He likes Marvel a lot and sci fi stuff so he went crazy back there, my baby’s a fan hihi cutiepatootie. After that movie, I wasn’t BV anymore and I was just so happy when he said that he could stay late this time cos he has no classes tomorrow (YAWYYYY). We did the usuals, we played at Timezone and this time he beat me na in basketball :( He got better alright! We had our picture taken hihi sweet photo indeed (I kept it). We played deal or no deal and we realized we suck at that game :)) But all the other games we played together (not as competition), we did really well :D After Timezone since we’re tired already, we walked to get some dinner but along the way we passed by the bag organizer store (the Japanese one) and bought a gift for his mom’s birthday. We went straight to eat late dinner at Cibo, talked a lot there and I got so full yumyumyum. After that we bought French macaroons for my parents (para good shot) and he took me home. He’s so cute when he was talking to my dad (my dad likes him a lot). My parents liked his thoughfulness and my dad said he’s a gentleman! Nothing beats that feeling when you know your parents like the one you love HIHIHI :”>
A great day-night indeed! We managed to achieve that “sweet date that would leave you kilig” kind of date we used to have back then when he was just courting me :) I missed that. I’m still kilig! (jologs ewww but I can’t help it!) I love this feeling. He never fails to make me feel like this :”> He’s on his way home palang as of the moment, I hope he arrives home safely.
We made beautiful memories today that I will surely never forget. He’s leaving for HK tomorrow for his mom’s birthday. :( Limited communication again but every day of no Janko means a day closer of seeing him again! (Yes I’m used to it already since his family travels A LOT Hahaha they travel for almost every occasion written on calendar HAHAHA kidding) Can’t wait for Sunday and hear his voice again! :)
I may seem bipolar but I guess this is how love is. It can’t just be full of happy times and rainbows. But one thing’s for sure, in our love (the love between Janko and I), the good times always outnumber the bad ones.
Thank you for this day. You made me really happy :) I love you, fencing superstar/scifi geek/Marvel fan.
Ps. This is a memorable day because I’m so proud of my baby ‘cause he knows how to save money now! Great job babe, you have learned the value of money you extravagant bastard HAHAHA Kidding! I’m sorry ‘cause you had to spend a lot on me :(
WHAT I FEEL EXACTLY
Doesn’t it suck enough that you have to live so far away from each other but not far enough for you guys to become unreachable and not able to communicate and just close enough to actually do that regularly or even have surprise visits from each other? Yes long distance relationships are hard but I don’t think this is what we really have cos heck we still live in the same country, in fact we live in the same region for that matter. We may be 3 cities away but hey, we don’t need to ride a boat or a plane to see each other, for goodness sake we have fucking Skyway. We fucking have the same cellphone service subscription and he is on postpaid, his calls and texts to me are actually free. But what makes this so damn hard?
Well first, as I said our distance isn’t something extreme and we both know we could find ways to actually see each other or just even talk to each other REGULARLY AND PROPERLY. We don’t have signal barriers or anything. I actually feel that if we lived in different countries, I’d actually find it easier cos the only hindrance is the distance itself. You might have trust issues, but hey, the distance could actually help you see how much you miss, want, need and love your partner. In our case, since we’re not too far but not close either, you will get this feeling of “why hasn’t he replied yet?, what is he doing? where is he?” because you know that reaching out to you isn’t impossible but actually quite easy to do. Not seeing each other would make you long for each other, but that is when you guys are really far. In our case, we’re not so maybe longing for your partner is just a one-way feeling here, and I’m the one doing that more. When you see each other, of course you’d feel so happy it kills you. If you really have a long distance relationship, you would make every second count and not waste even a moment of you not telling your partner how special she is, how you missed her, how you loved her even from afar, how often you think about her, how much you longed for her. But in our case, since again we’re not that far, when we saw each other, yes I was happy and it killed me too but the great day I thought ended within that day as well. It was a one day thing because the next day, everything just went back to how it was. It’s like nothing happened. It’s like you never had a great, heart warming day with the one you love and he just went on with his life again cos he knows (maybe) that you’re just there, always there waiting for him, very reachable and you, being stupid, still do wait and still make yourself goddamn reachable even after knowing that. What’s even more stupid is that after that glorious day that you spent together for your 18 months anniversary, you started feeling how he finally is the one you see with you in your future, you tell him everything you really feel, you gave 100% of your heart to him but he never appreciated that realization, he never took that letter seriously. And today, even if I was in my down moment because I’m suffering from an illness, he still wouldn’t care. Weren’t we just together the other day and now you act like a stranger to me?
I FEEL SO NAIVE RIGHT NOW INTO THINKING THAT YOU ACTUALLY DESERVE THOSE WORDS. I promise you, I was so wrong. I AM STUPID.
Doesn’t it suck when you finally felt and admitted to yourself how much he actually meant to you, he throws it all down the drain? After weeks of longing for each other, when you finally see each other and had an extraordinarily great day, the moment you wake up the next day, he’s as numb, emotionless and as insensitive as a rock to you? Won’t you stop and think, “IS THIS LOVE REAL? ARE YOU EVEN REAL?”
Be consistent, boys. It’s how you prove your love is genuine.
Photo Courtesy: tvycrooks
You ignore me during normal days… I need you now the most cos I’m sick, but you ignore me nonetheless. Imagine just what I feel now. I wanna jump of a cliff and I’m pretty sure you won’t mind either.
